I went outside to be with you

This is one of the reasons I could never be a sufficient mother.

There is one being in this world that needs me, literally. He loves me even when i don't deserve it, and forgives me in about ten minutes when I'm guilty. He nudges me with his big nose and does funny things when I'm upset, just to make me laugh. When he does something bad he bows his head and watches me with big sad brown eyes. He will spend days sitting with me in silence, while i stroke him during the summer pink sunsets. He even learned how to hug me, and learned how to play tag for my enjoyment. He hasn't treated anyone the way he treats me. He tells me I'm the only one he has ever needed.

I have mistreated my "baby", my Sammy boy, my hunny. sweetie pie..etc with the cutesy names. I don't give him attention. I've become so wrapped up in myself that i have ignored him, not even remember him at all some days. I'm disappointed in myself. I'm taking the chance to change today. He deserves all the love i can give him and i will always love him, in a way that can never be damaged.

(you wont know but this isn't a person) <- that's messed up. Welcome.