HOT jalopino (yes i know i spelt that wrong but u understood it) HEAD

Yes thats right add it to my list of flaws I have a very high temper and it flares for no reson really i just get irritaded.Goodness Bless my friends and families hearts for putting up with my attacks at them the only way i can see them(the attacks) to any beifit for them it to learn to handle with us pulsating necks types. Oh there is someone reading this going i wonder what made her this way a nipicky mother an abusive grandmother, nope no way in hell is it that. Its just the way im wired (i will tell you again im a bloody lunatic) but unless you can say it was caused by a rude brother or my young obsession with leaves then its just the perfect combination of being blunt and being easliy enjoyed by the fact of freaking out. And trust me that sounds really messed up i know but when i get angry enough to just flip out on someone i can put up a huge ordeal. My anger as im sure you can understand washes over me hytens(spelling error) my senses my combacks are harse but just roll off my tongue not giving a care until its burns with guilt later. But dang its weird but its kinda gives me a rush like a $10,000 paycheck to a shop-fanic or a dewy hot new guy to the romantic obbesive girl anger is my drug . Got any ideas for a career that constantly fighting (mmm lawer how fun). Though i have lost friends and lovers over my drug, hey theres billions of people i can always get more

Your bitchy (sry worth it just fits) Blogger mwhahahaha

My Baby

I think i may have a car for when i turn 16, but not any car, a truck!!! i always wanted a ford ranger for my 16th but its alright this is just a truck (ford) with an extended cab. I got to drive it around yesterday and today. I may sound like a tom-boy or a redneck but i dont even care i love it my own little (biggish) truck i just hope i do get it :S
Sincerely your procrastating math and feature story writer...

I wish my life had a beautiful storyline or at least would make a good movie

I'm young, even to young to drive without a parent but at the same time im old enough to get a job and have my own life, a life made of cerfews and choices, mainly what i do with them. Now is the time all the drama happens or not at all the cliches and rule breaking is going this is a little preview of our future. The jerk that broke your heart will quickly become immature, the pretty girls wear to much makup and turn naughty falling down their own ladders, the nerdy boys start to look like men and kinda hot, the ones that dont fit in develop completly differnt then the rest, the smarty pants strive to stay there, the quiet start shouting and the loud hush, the ones that were on the edge turn into what there mothers wouldnt want in a son, lies, hores, sellouts, backstabbing, love, tears, smiles, let downs, friends, drugs, and of course the social scenes. The habits we start now begin to shape the adults we become and the lifes we will lead. I want to live it up i wont be able to be this free and innocent later on in life lets just hope i dont tear my pulling threads to burst maybe just fray them and loosen them up
Sincerly your mentally nuts blogger

Dying To Sleep

So you know how everyone says you die if you die in your sleep. Well i have a question for them, how would you know? did you mamma tell you, well who would tell her? because to really know you would have to be dead! But i know because last night i did die in my sleep! I was kidnapped by the mafia and in this big white suburban neighboorhood house (it really seemed normal on the outside and quite exqisite on the inside the expensive clean furniture and the perfectly lined family pictures.) but you know i was trapped in it there was bodyguards scattered all around and completely around the house every way in. But yet i was completely and totally alone my imagination choking my hopes. The men had told me i was going to die because i knew something i couldnt tell anyone but i honestly had know idea what secert this supposfully was. and i promised over and over i didnt know anything! Then they told my dad to stop by the house (i was guessing that it was for money like a randsome) but i knew they would kill me anyways yet there was nothing i could do my innocent father would come up with millions if he had to, to save his little girl. So my father ended up in this building to the whole time i was bawling and sreaming not even feeling it because i was so numb but then my dad came and it all changed i was on a mission to get him out, and you know how dreams are hazzy this was my hazzy moment (dang right b/c that would have helped me get out of that damn place) but i was very glad i got him out then i was comptemplating the idea of death i am religous but to believe i could die to realize i was going to die at any moment gave me the urge to get out to find some way to escape it to not even try was obsurud and the men that were watching me were louging and just sitting around the house waiting for the head of whatever they were to come back. I got to the garage i had made it! They i opened the garage door with my hands partway and i saw the sun i thought i would never seen it again! Now i was standing, the men had noticed and threw me up before i could even flinch.. i was dead meat now the man was home i was in the basement he shot me..abruppt ending i was dead i saw the bullet hit my chest and i woke up to see my bed..i had just died in my sleep im still freaking out a bit what if im not even alive right now this is all a dream, then you wont ever read it, but what if its experiment from the mafia
-Your possibly insane blogger.......

Drowning

I am suffocating, i know your thinking she can possibly she is typing this but i feel like i am. Im so busy its driving me to procasternation beyond the norm. Its so tough to prioratize then there is the fact that im way to lazy! With trying to balance family friends (and the fact boys are dirty lol) happiness and irritation. Then there is fun and school plus the fact having to choose between them because there is not enough time to do both. (plus this huge project for j10 thats driving me crazy b/c i barely like journalism and having to write my own er...) then im pretty much a music go-roo and fashion tryer haha thats sounds stupid. Anyways then you have the friends that getting fricken straight A's are in 3 sports are beautiful with matching outfits everyday and help children in africa it makes me look like a idiot, fatso, ugly, scrub, and an uncaring B. sometimes i want to freak out and tell the teachers to leave the homework due till friday ugh or tell my friends "hey can you just get an A- and 2 B's thanks oh and when your at it, stain your clothes like a normal person and cut your hair really ugly, i almost forgot thanks girlfriend love ya." :D haha im kinda a mean person but im a little jealous haha
Love you wishing time stopper but you know i would stop it and watse it anyways (lol) blogger ;P

I may Just Be a HypoCrite

I Am a sorta athlete i will race and do triathlons and such but im a lazy person and i complain at pratice when i hurt i give up a bit and ive never really completly totally gotten into the mind set of a race or a sport. I dont write i love swimming on everything or decorate my room in water colors or a track, i dont even know where my race bike is, or do i wear race shirts everyday? nope. Yet im known well for my athletic skills erm i just hope no one is inspired by me.

Also i say i listen to all kinds of music and i do but i wont listen to some. But were all guilty of this one.

The judging theory too (guilty and dont you deny it)

Another thing i hate gooey relationships, well i think i do ugh i cant be in one they dont work for me whenever they do something i laugh b/c its riduculous. My entire family is made up of them too haha except me of course (recap) brother in an insanely serious relationship, parents in love since high school, sister just got married, even my grandma has a boyfriend!! but seriously (not kidding even .0001%) i dont have crushes anymore. Yeah i may think some boys are attractive but i usually dont persue them it would just ruin it. But i want a prince and a happily ever after yet i cant stand marrige but i want one. But i may want a relationship just not with anyone i presently know. (ha but my sister says im indepent and thats good) how would she know?

There is so many more maybe im a bit repeitive but were all boring honey if you havn't figured that out yet.

Your quickly not going to follow me anymore are you? Blogger

People Watching

People Watching. If you have never done this its just when your around a bunch of people you have never meet and you just kinda look at them, not really judging just being open minded. Whenever i go to big cities i cant help but do this its so facinating, like this weekend i noticed about 300 differnt types of people. Our social standings, happiness, wealth, and additudes shape out entire lives! Just by the way some people were walking i could tell their own self worth!
So you might have heard this saying "Our childhoods make us who we are as adults." Well...im pretty sure my siblings childhoods were THAT differnt then mine so Im not too sure. Our brains may have differnt reactions and siblings may have similiar qualities but i say that we just had simliar experiances of home life.
Back to people watching: The way people where there clothes you can tell too. If they had a tough night, really into fashion, searching for attention, a high school name brander, tired and comfy.
Thanks for reading (sorry for the bad gragmer and sepelling)
Mhhm i wonder what people think of me when they people watch?
Your, For now, Thoughtfull Blagga

ELECTIONSS

Okay so im very glad im not old enough to vote for elections this tuesday, i dont want to be to blame for whatever happens after this. It is our country, lets try and protect if even if we see our world crashing down us..pick the leader you believe will at least TRY to pick it up even if its w/knifes...
bloging sorta Jasmine Hopeful..

Pain = Happiness?

Okay so i must apologize, i hate writing about swimming to you guys b/c im beeting your not in it but it is pretty much my life right now (at least for the next to weeks). Anyways lately i have making it hurt trying really hard and my body wants against everything to just stop halfway in the pool and float along like a piece of driftwood but i guess my brain is a tiny bit more powerful and it keeps me going. But yes i have been trying super duper hard (and im just relizing a never really have before) and we had big nine today..and the outcome from this wonderfuly hard pain i have been feeling i dropped 1 second in my events..thats it!! Im a little upset.. but i am very happy just shooting for 2 less seconds to get my goal of high school :D..
- Sencccciirlly, Your hagard tired sore crybaby blogga