Review on a little N & N

I would have to say nick and norahs is my favorite movie (at least right now). First Music is amazing (they even have a vampire weekend song!). Then the story line is good, the whole music fans trying to get to "THAT" band even if they do get a little distracted. There is the simple way of falling for someone even if you don't really know them and unravaling their personality by doing things (not by sexting haha). Ah then there is the kicker of the mean girl, and the user boy getting everything handed to them for being bad. Watch It, Good Idea :D

You Really Don't Have Any Power, Boy

"I just can't believe he overpowers me." My boss, the smart kid, the better athlete/singer/friend, the prettier one, compare some more will you please? I know it makes you feel good right? "Well at least im better then that guy" Scoff and brag you selfrighteous man you. Naw i didnt mean it stop right there.
Now, now i think you should learn that maybe we all like things we feel good and bad, no one is "better" then anyone else. You ever wonder why soo many teeny teenagers end it all. Well theres your answer they think there the low lowest low, boo (or their happiness synapses are a bit off track, "Everyones better then me." Not True my brother, that mr tie and professional CEO may have money but when the night ends he will remember the wife lost because he was a bastard. That happy man you see riding his bike? Well dont you bring him down we all strive to reach his peace. He loves his life because his daughter died and his house burned down, he lives happy in honor of herr. Everyone has a story maybe they are the only ones that read it maybe they didnt write it all they were too busy. I think its high time people get over who has more money, is more beautiful, blah blah blah and just go out and get with their friends (maybe you have to make some eh?) but do that, just make yourself feel free and full of laughs and bruises from doing ridulous things. Or if you like reading read read read in the sun by the pool in your room.
"Everyone is a gaint mystery box, let them tell you there secrects and make your own with them and others before you lose your mystery trying to overpower otherssss"- others mixed late ideas published and mushed together by a psychopathhhhhhhh (that'd be a ma)

First Came an Action then a Reaction

senses. They let us see feel smell taste and hear our world. Amazing, very much. But they can also hurt the most! Or it seems that way at least. When you have an ear infection you may realize you can't hear so your unable to do certain things, this makes you notice your ear more, also the pain. Yesterday i got an eye infection called congenctavitous.(murdered the word) Okay. what that really means is, I have little (well in my case quite large) bumps underneath my eye lid. gross eh? Yes and hurts like a mommy. So i stayed home because the stupid doctor labeled me having pink eye too! okay when my eye is irrated it turns red (yours should too). Now my moms going around telling everyone to not touch me because i have PINK EYE. My eye doesnt even itch. It just hurts but im wrong i guess..your eye doesnt hurt hunny you have pink eye...no i have congentavitous.. Senses hurt the most.

Just Order the General Taos

I got a job. Surprising for the very lazy and easy to give up person i am. But anyways, i don't know for sure but i think the job i picked is the HARDEST job to start out with...maybe ever. First of all i couldn't just work where people just buy things or do paperwork..i decided to waitress. Not to bad eh? Now this is the food i waitress...Chinese (the food all looks the fing same!). now the place i work uses these computer things..i don't get them at all..ugh. Nother thing..no one is really training me..I'm supposed to fill my time and not waste Johnny's (my Chinese boss that i don't really understand) plus i think hes already trying to find ways to fire me...Also i don't know how much I'm being paid or if at all..i came in this weekend for 4 hours!, and I'm scared to tell him i cant go next week(I'm going to prom). There's some ups...i will be able to understand accents a little better...and maybe make friends with the cooks at least, and some times I'm sure i could get some food (although i haven't tried this yet) AAAHH okay it felt good to write that down..thanks..If you think your first job was harder please enter the bad day contest and let me know (it would make me feel better)If you go to the china restuarant cut me lots of slack.

insert:(whatever the Chinese word for CRAZY)

I'm Alone and the World is Having More Fun Then Me

I feel like im rushing for nothing at all planning all day everyday for things then the come ready. set. over! Me being the high schooler i am, is planning for college and life in general..but its all a big gamble. it scares me. One person or one fail could get my plans messed up! AH! Thats why i tend to do crazy things. I never feel like im living in the moment (except in swim meets and concerts) So my favorite days are home alone ones!! See, usually im not at home...i sadly invite myself to things...got to stop that hehe. But my family is here alot but tonight it flip flopped to me , in a big empty 5 bedroom house (yippie)! BROADCASTING LIVE::::I"M MAKING JUNK FOOD LISTENING TO PLAYRADIOPLAY! AND PLAYING CAKE MANIA HAHAH:::: It sounds stupid and ridulously boring i know..but i like being boring with myself. No one can judge my outfit or my dorky dance moves or tell me to be quiet or give me any drama i dont care about. I wish these nights would never end sometimes..im not joking...my dad just pulled up.. booo...whatever my dads an okay guy (the mix of my dads weird antics and my moms worriedness and turned me into a reckless/uptight freakoooo)
irionic ant it?

Sunny Paradise.

I wrote this awesome blog about my cruise..it wouldnt work..im kind of upset about it. You know when you write something and it gets deleted you wish you could just retreive it awnyways. Its like i poured my heart out to hit the wall. So i guess i will just write it this way. I want to disappear back with my teenagers to our cruise ship adventures. While taking chances like leaning over the boat while kevin and jared make you scream, sitting in the hot tub when colorado gives you the famous sexy/creepy eye, and his twin asks you how you are. Wish i could throw my arms around australia and nikki and just dance the night away. WAtch the stugell brothers make fools of themselves just so you will laugh. Watch Zed be a complete gentlemen then laugh that he's not. And the Ice Cream oh the ice cream bonding time, just talking and spilling, the warm darkness filled with stars and watery waves, the one week romances that come along with winks and flirting complements and faces just for you. to my boy in our box, you told me that was your favorite part of your vacation, it was mine too. REUNION!

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I wish i could write an interesting blog. I wish i were a little happier. I wish it were warm. I wish i had some chocolate. I wish i had the best boyfriend. hehe. I wish i could be the best at something. I wish my nose wasnt so big. I wish my friends lived with me. I wish i didnt have to do anything i dont want to do. I wish my computer was newer. I wish wishwishwishwishwish. I wish there was more important things i would wish for. I wish there was more shooting stars to wish upon..

ENLIGHTENED PERSPECTIVE

I promise you'll come away with an enlightened perspective. The subjects covered affect us all on a daily basis:> > They're written by Andy Rooney , a man who has the gift of saying so much with so few words. Enjoy.......> > I've learned.... That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person. I've learned That when you're in love, it shows. I've learned That just one person saying to me, 'You've made my day' makes my day. I've learned That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.I've learned That being kind is more important than being right. I've learned That you should never say no to a gift from a child. I've learned That I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help him in some other way. I've learned That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with. I've learned That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand. I've learned That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.I've learned That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for. I've learned That money doesn't buy class. I've learned That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular. I've learned That under everyone hard shell is somone that wants to be loved. I've learned That to ignore the facts does not change the facts. I've learned That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you. I've learned That love, not time, heals all wounds I've learned That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am. I've learned That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile. I've learned That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them. I've learned That life is tough, but I'm tougher. I've learned That opportunities are never lost, someone will take the ones you miss. I've learned That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere. I've learned That I wish I could have told my Mom that I love her one more time before she passed away. I've learned That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them. I've learned. That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks. I've learned That when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little fist, that you're hooked for life. I've learned That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it. I've learned That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

Jazzyfizzle..I have learned....The world doesn't stop when you want it too so hold on to your good times. That when you say i love you, you can't take it back, that a hug can make me want to be around you,that food tastes better when you eat it slow, that everyone is a mystery..and i dont want to know it all, that people look so much happier in summer but so much cuter in winter. That warm water is always more fun to dive into. I want to aprreicate the dayss..i hope you can relate to any of these :D
I've learned...I may just be...(fill in the blank)

I went outside to be with you

This is one of the reasons I could never be a sufficient mother.

There is one being in this world that needs me, literally. He loves me even when i don't deserve it, and forgives me in about ten minutes when I'm guilty. He nudges me with his big nose and does funny things when I'm upset, just to make me laugh. When he does something bad he bows his head and watches me with big sad brown eyes. He will spend days sitting with me in silence, while i stroke him during the summer pink sunsets. He even learned how to hug me, and learned how to play tag for my enjoyment. He hasn't treated anyone the way he treats me. He tells me I'm the only one he has ever needed.

I have mistreated my "baby", my Sammy boy, my hunny. sweetie pie..etc with the cutesy names. I don't give him attention. I've become so wrapped up in myself that i have ignored him, not even remember him at all some days. I'm disappointed in myself. I'm taking the chance to change today. He deserves all the love i can give him and i will always love him, in a way that can never be damaged.

(you wont know but this isn't a person) <- that's messed up. Welcome.

Clear the area make it steady now

This weekend= nothing. I did nothing. Okay i did do things and i went to a movie party friday but nothing yesterday and today. But suprisingly i loved it usually i beg people to get me out of my house.i tried .there was show choir. instead i did things my mom has asked me to do for the last month, i'm not scrabbling to get it all done today. I'm super relaxed, i slept a total of 22 hours this weekend. Maybe i need to do this more often.
normal< crazy un poco

Will you be my everything?

April showers bring flowers..in particular a Jasmine flower. (RANDOM ORDER BLOG CONFUSING SORRY) That's right my sister nurtures me. We both agree she needs to be my true mom. But I'm better off with the creeper i think. But i spent the weekend with my sister and well we are each others other half and realize this more and more. We have our stereotypes A-the laid back ironic punk country chick- and J -the biggest bad ass that will ever apply for Harvard-. We don't care about anyone else when we are in the same room (in a way). we had an epiphany that the other is the only one we have ever been completely ourselves with, and its always that way. Me and Her no third wheel, no need for it, its simple.

We fight, yell, hit, cry, breakdown, stop and try and smile, hug, squeeze, wipe each others eyes, then make it all better. We love, hug, cuddle, tickle, hold hands, fall asleep next to each other. We talk, about love, likes, dislikes, family, future, memories, tabloids, life, music, books and movies, plans, share our epiphanies, and each other. We experience, workouts, accidents, sushi(or food), pranking, stores, people, fashion, driving, and parties. We laugh the same, talk the same, care the same, both are one of the guys, and are daredevils and ditzes. I have way better style, she is friendlier, I'm smarter, she is better with men, I'm more athletic, shes less lazy, i love her too much, she loves me too much.

Oh this is just the beginning, lets just say i would probably go insane if anything happened to you aprilpoo (but i know you would have depression if something happened to me). I love you and miss you when your not there, your my sister and my best friend and your perfect just the way you are. I smother you with hugs and kisses

My Heaven

The Square. There are people walking around everywhere. They all have there own personalities and characters fit for a movie street, some where fur, others close to nothing! The place is famous for riots, food, style and cafes. Parties are heard, honking, hooting, and bass. Lights fill the streets, flashing and splashing on the sidewalk. Banners with fashion exploding twice my size hang from the inside shops. Time to visit the uptown. And bring me the wuptown girl (wanna be uptown girl).
I visited it this weekend and I'm pretty sure going to live within walking distance when a wee older...so i can be a poser...as one of the over the top people.

A Few Of My Things

I am not going to blogcast about yesterday's . its depressing that all you need to know.. And for that reason I'm going to make this a HAPPY BLOG! Where i list all the things that pop into my head right now, that make my laugh or smile or i just love..Start with food. all sorts. Adorable Electronic music. TAYLOR LAUNTER. bright t-shirts. Textured hair. athletic highs. tall socks. electric blankets. Whispered late night talk, and the worry of being heard. Racing (snowmobile). Random comments and inside only secrets. My best friends who are tied, b/c they can both tie up my heart. an unexpected picture. Airplane rides. Daddy polar hug. Having the person on the other end of the phone not want to hang up. Learning (nerd). Weightlessness of water. A good book with a slice of cheese. A almost too hot shower. A grin or eyebrow raise i completely understand. A mixed CD. naughty talk and being single. being a weirdo and creeper, being busy and a teenager...
I may just be a pill popper but you would never take me seriously ppppllloooppp

I've been proven guilty

Emotions. reactions to an experience that the brain transmits as good or bad.Neuroscience. Is honestly making me bawl right now.(STOP READING NOW) no i didn't spell bowl wrong. Cry,sniffle, cough, escaping a bubbly moaning sound making my mascara drag down, mucus flow out my nose, face redden and be very distorted. I haven't cried since i puked this summer. (STOP READING NOW)
Neuroscience and my need to be a success makes me want to good. want to learn, get good grades be good at athletics, get a scholarship, be looked up to. (Sorry this is confusing to read but my brain is sending a lot of impulses at the moment.) (STOP STOP STOP) my brother, everyone i know stereotypes him, making me a very pathetic teenager and sister to :( do it too. Tells me over and over again i think I'm better than everyone else and I'm a bitch. I never thought it mattered to me but, it crashed into me now, I've hit the brick wall. It's true. Not just my brother thinks this either my whole family does they can all hear me crying right now.typing this down, laughing at the t.v. together in the other room. I've dissed them so badly i don't think they care about me anymore. Love and care is different they have to love me and take care of me, but to care if I'm crying, if i stain my favorite sweater, to pat me on the back and say its okay....that's gone. They have a great reason to though.
I'm guessing my friends think this too they must. I honestly didn't think i was like this, always joking about it, because i do like people and try not to judge or be too rude. but i don't think its funny anymore. I think I've just lost that humor. I'm scared no one likes change their body rejects it usually. How will this change me?
I don't feel above anyone right now, i want to move outside and live with the pigs. I am disgusted with myself, my personality, i don't want to be a success anymore i want to feel loved, by someone other then my sister or a temporary boyfriend, for the first time in my life, a hug that tells me I'm perfect the way i am. It wont come as they turn up the volume and avoid the bitch in the other room, getting their justice. I think I'm going to pour out all my fluid through my eyes today. Epiphany has been served. (I TRIED TO STOP YOU)

Da-Dadada-Daaa-DadaI Like Your Eyes Wide

The laws of life. What is it? We are just made of organs and bones we have sensory organs that let us feel wool and grab the chips. Take me apart. I'm nothing but matter. But i can do so much run marathons, cry and scream. Take me apart. I'm nothing with out my senses. Why did you put me here oh lord? It's not like i can do something so amazing...If i save someone from suicide 100 more die in my state for that reason. Why is there even people at all? We alter every place we have inhabited. Without us the world wouldn't have hate or war. People aren't good we are deceiving, psychotic beings. We want everything we don't appreciate or forgive. We disgrace your name lord...has this gotten too out of hand?
-your neurotic nut..

Thats it, its over

What happens when you plan something for awhile then it happens, fast, then its over? Lets just say relief, and a little sad, burned out, and relaxed. I kind of like this feeling haha

Is it just a role

I try to take a stand for people or things i believe in i really do. I want to impact things that i believe matter not watch them disapear or cause pain. What happens when people don't want you to help them? Do you just walk away, when you truely think you could patch up their sadness? Sorry i was to passionate in helping you, ill just go fuck myself sorry. Screw helping lets just be selfish. (sorry for naughtly language W)
crazy people+bad temper= cereal killers

Homeostasis

I want it all! I want nothing. What is it? I don't know i want to be successful but I'm much to lazy. I want someone to love me but i don't want to be labeled as with them. I want looks, wit, and passion but i think i have a little of them...I want to be different, but i want people to accept me and be somewhat "normal". I think i know who i am but then i would never depend on myself. I feel like life will never end but i know body parts will fail and wither, or all together end. I wish my life was a story line though i love the suspense of not knowing what will happen. I think I'm strong but i know I'm not. Are Polar Opposites what equalizes us all, or am i just an exception?
-He said, "you got to be crazy!" I say, "Boy you haven't realized this yet?"

I Wish You Were Here

no i dont

VRrrrrrroooommm, EEEEEEEEEkkkk, Bang!, OH SSSSH****!!!

That would be anytime driving with me...I am terrible at this trival task. Ha and im taking my test this week or next, it looks to be that im going to need to move to a walking distance from a bus stop.

Have Any Taste Ever?

I absolutly loath planning things ergg so what do i do? Start planning a huge event which could be devisating or awesome fun....I want it to be fun. It's a big deal in my tiny exsistance...friends make the 15th fun please

Is it god who chokes in these situations?

Whats the point really? Like why are we here? Why should I care if I look nice or do my homework? Why should i like people, date, or make friends? Why should it matter?! I heard once that life is just something we think about all a big dream. It really made me think...I wish i could ask god, "God is everyone here make believe?" But when we really need things we don't, were pros at building up walls to shelter us against pain...i wish i could tear mine down and create a force i dont think i have..what would people do? would they pity me? Would they think i pity myself?, Am selfish and ungrateful?, thats why i wouldnt tear my walls down they would force me to try and paste them back up with used cement harding myself to i stick into my wall till it over takes me.. And i dont care if you are the most happy go lucky person in the world, we all have pain, heartache, been dissed, and slit cases of depression we remember the worst insults or the ones that we mearly surpassed but haunts us 3 years from now..Why deal with people when they all have the potentail to hurt..but why not? Eh rather go out there and do something then sit at home and collect recollections. God i guess you need to show me that your to live for..wow jk i just that apfany!! haah :D ------enasni ydal seog ot?

oh if only i had been listening.

i wish i had more time here..sort of.. i wish i used my time wiser. If i was to not watse time with things that dont actually matter. i could learn so much more, i could acquire skills that are helpful and needed..Instead I fill my mind and time with stupid things that wont even matter in a day, a week, a month. I wish i could pay attention, when someone tells me i look pretty, or that i should take a salsa class, but i disrigard things that i think arent like me or i over analize things that are so plain. If we all could believe in the geniune-ty of people or stop caring that they called a snob 3 years ago we could care about more important things not be so wrapped up in ourselves..(mr.worth i completly understand why you havent told anyone im good at this)..b/c im a little unzipped at the top..

Going through the motions

Ah the ways life twists and turns (actually its mainly our emotions). But teenage days of new adventures and wanting to bolt your door in front of your moms face. Anyways...have you ever relized the way we use people..or not even realize them..or the way we just cant be without some. i had an apifany that this is the people we are..not who or what we (ourselfs) think we are. We are the way we laugh so hard it hurts, when we wake up groaning to the world, the way we listen/or dont, and the way we show our nervousness. People. I wonder how we can know someones qirks and actually love them so much that we look forward to them. People. were all made of the same parts, the same stages in life, but differnt experances and hobbies. People. What makes some bad and good? People. Humans the most advanced speices we know of...but some are dumber than a chipmunk. People. How could someone be racist when there is so many diversitys you could never figure them all out. People...amaze me
but im just a kooky lady so disregard what ive confused you with